We are whole again at our house. I finally went to pick up Jack. For those of you don't know or are not familiar with it, we had Jack privately cremated and his ashes returned to us. I have known for a couple of weeks that I could go get him. It was something I didn't want to do with Maddie, since we are usually together I figured I better get my boy and bring him home. We stopped yesterday on our way to hop n healthy. I explained that we needed to pick up something of Jacks from the vet. When I went in the normal receptionist who knows us was on the phone. A new girl asked if she could help me, I tried my best to skirt the issue and say why I was there. Finally Meredith got off the phone and got the bag for me. All Maddie said when she handed it to us was, "I really miss my buddy". Heart breaking....
So we are complete again.. Jack is home and his ashes are right next to Jessie's, I thought last night that I should not have them right next to each other since Jess always got huffy if Jack was too close they always needed a buffer of a pillow or something. Silly I know.
Friday, April 20, 2012
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Long time...
I feel I start ll of these with an apology anymore. Things are going well.
I had my three month follow up with Dr M today. I guess when they are so used to seeing me at my worse that it is shocking for them to see me. They all made a big deal about how well I looked. I have a little make up on today and I have hair!! Something that was falling out in clumps this time lasts year. I am not being pumped with drugs that work against me. Of course I look better that I did. I also have lost some weight. I need to loose more. I was doing better until I found a sale on peanut butter eggs at target. 75% off how could I pass then up. So needless to say I have bee doing more kettlebell exercises. No petscan this time. And I do not need to see them again until July.
My reduction side is finally starting to heal. I am still covering it furring the day but I think I can stop that soon. I did buy an off the rack bathing suit at target for $34 I was very excited. I have not tried on a blouse however I did buy some more flowy shirts, something I would have never worn before.
Maddie is doing great. She is really busy and talking and singing up a storm. She loves to sing tomorrow from Annie, the normal kiddy songs and his week she even started signing crazy train by Ozzy Osbourne. It's a funny performance.
We booked a trip!! If you do not want us to tag along you should probably not tell us about your trip. Aunt Eva told us that she was going to curacao we read about it and booked it. See don't tell us we might just tag along. :). Anyone planning a disney trip?
I had my three month follow up with Dr M today. I guess when they are so used to seeing me at my worse that it is shocking for them to see me. They all made a big deal about how well I looked. I have a little make up on today and I have hair!! Something that was falling out in clumps this time lasts year. I am not being pumped with drugs that work against me. Of course I look better that I did. I also have lost some weight. I need to loose more. I was doing better until I found a sale on peanut butter eggs at target. 75% off how could I pass then up. So needless to say I have bee doing more kettlebell exercises. No petscan this time. And I do not need to see them again until July.
My reduction side is finally starting to heal. I am still covering it furring the day but I think I can stop that soon. I did buy an off the rack bathing suit at target for $34 I was very excited. I have not tried on a blouse however I did buy some more flowy shirts, something I would have never worn before.
Maddie is doing great. She is really busy and talking and singing up a storm. She loves to sing tomorrow from Annie, the normal kiddy songs and his week she even started signing crazy train by Ozzy Osbourne. It's a funny performance.
We booked a trip!! If you do not want us to tag along you should probably not tell us about your trip. Aunt Eva told us that she was going to curacao we read about it and booked it. See don't tell us we might just tag along. :). Anyone planning a disney trip?
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Hair cut, highlights and plastic surgery
I got a hair cut and a few highlights last week. I no longer feel or look like a cancer patient. I look like a normal person who has a short hair cut. I am getting used to my new curls and they are not as bad as I anticipated. I do miss pony tails however this hair cut is pretty easy to maintain.
Yesterday I had to go to the city for my appointment with David and we had a town meeting last night. I knew I would be speaking so I put some make up on. Everyone at David's office and our neighbors commented on how well I looked yesterday. I usually do not put make up on during the week. Maybe it is that or that I am shedding my zepoli weight from last year. It's funny because one of our neighbors kept saying how young I looked and wanted to know if I lost weight. YES I have I been very careful about what I eat. I have been passing on dessert and not visiting Mary Jane's. For my non-local or family member readers, Mary Jane's is an ice cream stand near our house. I have 10 more lbs I would like to loose and a lot of Toning to do, however I think it is a great start. We have planned and booked a trip and I want to look good in my bathing suit that I plan to buy off the rack at a department store. Not from a specialty catalog for top heavy women!!!!
Yesterday I had to go to the city for my appointment with David and we had a town meeting last night. I knew I would be speaking so I put some make up on. Everyone at David's office and our neighbors commented on how well I looked yesterday. I usually do not put make up on during the week. Maybe it is that or that I am shedding my zepoli weight from last year. It's funny because one of our neighbors kept saying how young I looked and wanted to know if I lost weight. YES I have I been very careful about what I eat. I have been passing on dessert and not visiting Mary Jane's. For my non-local or family member readers, Mary Jane's is an ice cream stand near our house. I have 10 more lbs I would like to loose and a lot of Toning to do, however I think it is a great start. We have planned and booked a trip and I want to look good in my bathing suit that I plan to buy off the rack at a department store. Not from a specialty catalog for top heavy women!!!!
Hello April
I want to start by saying this year is flying by. I am sorry for not blogging for a bit. It isn't that I do not want to or that life has been so boring that I can not find topics. I just feel like time is flying by. I will try to be better.
On the cancer front. I a doing pretty well. Actually the cancer side is looking great. The side I had the reduction on has been giving me issue. Radiation is not as targeted as they say. There is scatter so my good side did get some scatter radiation. It has not been healing as quickly as I usually do. A few weeks ago they actually cut the scab off to allow for better healing. The scab was thick and hindering the sides to come together. It also bleed a lot. It had been looking better though I had been keeping it covered. Yesterday I went for a check up and as I got undressed I somehow re-opened it. I was bleeding like crazy. I grabbed gauze and held it to me to try and stop the bleeding, I also started to clean up myself and the floor. I realized I better put the gown On so when Barbara or David came in I was not topless cleaning the floor. Good thing they run late because I had enough time to clean everything and take a seat before they came in. Barbara came in first and said she could fix it. She pulled out a stick with something on it. I knew what she wanted to do and I was not going to let that happen. I was not prepared for that or the pain. I have had my nose cautherized and to be honest I never want it again. So my negotiating begins. What do we do if we don't do that?? Nothing was the response we continue to allow it to heal on its own. We all know now that I need a little help. I began to question the pain, just then David walks in. I am still Ina defensive position, arms crossed an left hand cupping my right boob one to keep the gauze on to stop the bleeding and two to hide it.... We decided that they would just touch it to my skin and if it hurt they would stop. Just then Jeff walks in. I knew I needed to allow this to happen, because if I kept up my protest and acting like a two year old I would be restrained an forced to do it anyway. I was out numbered and weighed so.... I did it!! It barely hurt it was a sting and it stung on and off all day. Nothing crazy. Now it just itches.. I hate that I get myself so worked up over silly things. It is so stupid.
On the cancer front. I a doing pretty well. Actually the cancer side is looking great. The side I had the reduction on has been giving me issue. Radiation is not as targeted as they say. There is scatter so my good side did get some scatter radiation. It has not been healing as quickly as I usually do. A few weeks ago they actually cut the scab off to allow for better healing. The scab was thick and hindering the sides to come together. It also bleed a lot. It had been looking better though I had been keeping it covered. Yesterday I went for a check up and as I got undressed I somehow re-opened it. I was bleeding like crazy. I grabbed gauze and held it to me to try and stop the bleeding, I also started to clean up myself and the floor. I realized I better put the gown On so when Barbara or David came in I was not topless cleaning the floor. Good thing they run late because I had enough time to clean everything and take a seat before they came in. Barbara came in first and said she could fix it. She pulled out a stick with something on it. I knew what she wanted to do and I was not going to let that happen. I was not prepared for that or the pain. I have had my nose cautherized and to be honest I never want it again. So my negotiating begins. What do we do if we don't do that?? Nothing was the response we continue to allow it to heal on its own. We all know now that I need a little help. I began to question the pain, just then David walks in. I am still Ina defensive position, arms crossed an left hand cupping my right boob one to keep the gauze on to stop the bleeding and two to hide it.... We decided that they would just touch it to my skin and if it hurt they would stop. Just then Jeff walks in. I knew I needed to allow this to happen, because if I kept up my protest and acting like a two year old I would be restrained an forced to do it anyway. I was out numbered and weighed so.... I did it!! It barely hurt it was a sting and it stung on and off all day. Nothing crazy. Now it just itches.. I hate that I get myself so worked up over silly things. It is so stupid.
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