Endorsements

I know what your thinking, who am I.. Don't worry I agree. I have a few things we have purchased lately that are awesome, and worth spreading the word about.

As I mentioned my washing machine bit the dust. As much as I hated to spend the money on a new one, Honestly why couldn't Aunt Carol continue to do our laundry... Except when she does Maddie's towels they are not soft enough for our princess. Anyway my new top loading whirlpool is awesome!!!! My clothes are clean. My whites are white again. They have even gotten the Caca seal of approval. Just a little background on that. Aunt Carol hated that my whites always looked dingy. I couldn't help it she insisted that it was my electric dryer and that I do not hang my clothes outside. I will never hang my clothes outside, we are all too allergic to the outside and I just hate the way that looks. So when AC did our laundry she would always pick on my whites. She was highly annoyed that Jeff's undershirts where not as sparkling and starched as his dress shirts. She actually said I should get a second hamper and more shirts and she would do them weekly for Jeff. I am super anal about things. More so than people may know. I can spot a cheap suit or bad shoes (men's) a mile away. This was a quality I had even before Jeff. I also hate when a man has a dress shirt on an no undershirt under it. See told you I was a bit crazy. A button down collar with a tie also drives me nuts. The list can go on and on.... Sorry for getting off track. Now my whites bothered me but honestly who sees Jeff's undershirts. No one.. So I was not loosing sleep over it. I had a black shirt that was stained white from deodorant and now it is all black again. Amazing. It is also quiet. I mean my house no longer sounds like a landing pad. My house no longer shakes. I actually leave the laundry room door open so I can hear when it is done. My new washing machine is awesome!!

I got a Mani and pedi a couple weeks ago. The guy doing my nails pushed this gel manicure. He said it would last two weeks. I though yea right. Unusually can not leave the nail place with out a smudge or chip. I am almost at the two week mark and it is still going. I am pretty impressed.

My pillow. Both Jeff and I had heard the infomercials. Since there was a money back guarantee we figured what the heck and ordered them. They are great. Maddie loves hers. I usually slept with my head built up high and I don't with this pillow and Jeff is even sleeping on his back. I feel like I fall asleep faster and I feel refreshed in the morning. AC and UJ ordered them too and seem happy. Check out retailmenot if you plan to order for coupons.

Lastly Jeff has us all hooked on kind bars. They are fruit, nut granola bars. They are all natural with ingredients you can pronounce. While shopping this week I saw they had a bag of cereal. Both Maddie and I had some sprinkled over Greek yogurt for breakfast. This stuff is great and good for you. It is even cancer approved!! I get a lot of articles about Heath and nutrition. One very alarming one last week on nitrates, one hotdog a week can increase your chances of colon or rectal cancer by 40%. That is just crazy. Good thing we never eat them but we do love bacon. Oh well guess we will be giving that up too, unless I can find some natural nitrate free bacon. There must be a farm around here somewhere.

Making every birthday count

On Friday night Jeff and I went to an event for our local chapter of the American cancer society. It was lovely. The theme of the event was making every birthday count.
I also ordered shirts for us from stupid cancer. They say "get busy living".
I think both these themes sum up how I feel. Make every day count. And get busy living it is never too late.

We did not decide until last minute to go to the event. We (I) had a little problem securing babysitting. However in the end Caca came to our rescue. Sadly I do not have any pictures of Jeff and I. We both looked very nice. We ran into Dr Z there yes there is a flash from my past. He was glad to see I was doing so well. And I wanted to make sure he got my note on why I left his practice. It had nothing to do with him. However in the end the practice I chose was a much better fit for me. There was a silent auction during the cocktail hour which had pretty tasty food. At the dinner portion we where seated right near my oncology offices table. We actually spent most of the evening chatting with them. We got home fairly early. It was a very very nice night. Next year I expect to see more people support the event. :)

My head

I have given this post a couple days of thinking before I wrote it.

I was upset the other day when I heard about MCA from the beastie boys passing. Jeff knowing how much I love them wanted to make sure I was ok. Now I did not cry or anything but it is just an odd feeling I get when I hear of someone passing from cancer. I think it just shines a light that at any moment we cold be gone. I completely understand that in the end I may not even die from my cancer, but it is a factor.

I had to meet with a fitness coach for an assesment when I re-joined the gym. I will be 37 this month. When they did "actuall age" entering my weight and health they said my body feels like it is 42 however if I loose the 10lbs I want it would drop to 33. That whole cancer thing just spiked it way up. It's annoying.

I have done a lot of reading on cancer and how you feel after etc. I don't sit here and ponder every Ache and pain and wonder. But if I have trouble sleeping that is where my mind wonders. I think or wonder if I am doing everything to prevent a "relapse" (what a crappy word). It's crazy how your mind can wonder. I don't remember being like this before my diagnoisis. This whole cancer thing completely changes you.

I try to get up with a positive attitude each day, I try not to get bogged down with useless nonsense or caught up in other peoples drama. Life is to short to be miserable. Try to enjoy each day because you never know when it can be your last.

Another one bites the dust....

Appliance that is.. Mothers day came early this year, only because We do not have enough clean underwear to hold us over. Monday I put a load of laundry in set everything up and hit start. Only to hear a god awful noise. After speaking to a repair guy, Jeff, uncle Joel I ended up at Sohns. Aunt Carol came to the rescue and picked up our dirty laundry and washed, dried and folded all of our clothes. She did not iron (which I find funny since she says it is her talent) and delivered then back to us. I almost for a brief moment thought this system could work. But my new washer arrived today. I have not used it yet since we need new hoses. But I am excited. I never felt my old machine cleaned the clothes well and it shook the whole house when on spin.

To nipple or not to nipple....

I am healing very nicely. My reduction side is no longer bleeding and looks good. My cancer side, fake side what ever we call it looks good too.
Yesterday I went into the city for my check up with David and he said it is up to me but I could get a nipple as soon as the 14th. I spoke to Jeff and aunt Carol about it and they both think I should wait until after our trip. Jeff stressed to me that this is entirely up to me, that I do not need to donut if I do not want to. I think I will do it. I just don't know when.
I have also been ok'd to wear a bra with underwire. I know most people shutter at the thought but I am so excited. I have not had matching underwear in years.