I think I am becoming disgruntled

I dont know if it is the cancer or not.  However I pretty much stay off facebook these days, because I just dont care if you are stuck in traffic, stubbed your toe, or just having a bad day.  I want to reply to these post and say "well at least you do not have cancer.."  Honesty the cancer part of my life isnt even that bad.  The taxol is pretty easy, I am not nauseas, I sadly do not have any food issues (I do crave bad foods, zepollis, chessman cookies and pies, this is why I have gained 18lbs since the beginning of this).  The neupogen is one of the hardest parts and the time commitment.  I do not think people realize how busy cancer makes you.  Last week or example, I was off Monday (however cleaned the house and did laundry).  Tuesday was chemo and we went to Tracy's to swim.  Wednesday was neupogen, an appointment for Jeff and an impromptu trip to Staten Island.  I did have a nice dinner however I do not think the car ride was smart after the injection.  Thursday Neupogen and same on Friday and you all know the rest of story.  This week I only get two injections however have a list of thing to accomplish before the week ends.  Then we start it all over again..

I feel when I talk to people on the phone that unless it is for a purpose it is a useless call.  Hearing people complain about nonsence brings me down.  I need to work on this.

Tuesday in the City..

I had to go into the city for a fill on Tuesday.   I know I say this all the time however I love the look of my new boob.  I am actually back to wearing a normal bra and no prostecic.  I am a little smaller on that side but it isnt too bad, the prosteic made me really hot.  Well right now everything makes me really hot.

After my fill.  We finally made it to the central park zoo.  I know I got Aunt Carol back into the park.  Maddie loved it!!! She especially loved the polar bear, which is my favorite too. 

We also went to Aunt Carols favorite area of the city... Canal Street... It is just too congested there for me. 

MONDAY!!! The 4th of July

We had a very nice non stress day at Tracy and Dave's.  The food was great as well as the company.  Here are some pics of the day.

It took us a while to leave the house that day.  Maddie likes to give Jack his cookies when we leave.  Maddie was insisting that Jack say Please to her to get them.

Hooked up to # 5

It should be 6, but I will soon let that go too. I don't know when. My blood was great today. When I say great I mean average. I never thought I would be so happy to be average. Since today is Wednesday the most neupogen shots I can get this week is 2!! Isn't that great! Jeff pointed out that they could send me home with it for him to do. We did cut dow the amount of steroids I am taking, I was becoming a bit fiesty.

I have more pictures to post from the past two days and I will do that from home.
*before anyone asks the pictures are on my home computer*

Benedryl is kicking in so I'm going to close my eyes. :)

Pictures

I tried to update some of my posts with pictures.  Some of my older posts have pics to go along with it.

How is it Monday already

This weekend has flown by.  Happy Independence day to everyone.  I am thankful to live in a free country that does not have socialized medicine (yet). 

Thursday after I blogged the afternoon got crazier.  Uncle Joel called to talk to Aunt Carol, now that is not the funny part.  This entire story is not funny just very odd and ironic.  I could hear Aunt Carol ask if anyone was hurt or if it was totalled.  Those buzz words meant that there must have been an accident.  OH NO I was thinking.  Then I heard how bad is the damage to the house?  How on earth did their house get hit AGAIN.... Yes, for those of you that do not know, Aunt Carol and Uncle Joels house got hit once before.  I was in junior high and it was a teenager that was speeding, misjudged the curve and hit the garage.  This time a logging truck (not too sure why it was on their road) was not going fast enough to get up the hill and make the turn.  The engine stalled and  it started to roll backwards it hit the camper pushing it off the blocks and into the garage.  The camper is pretty messed up and will probably be totalled.  The garage though damaged isnt too bad.  Here is the bad part they had a trip planned to go camping.  Now they do not have a camper.  I have read a lot about taking care of the cancer patient caregivers.  My Aunt needs this vacation.  She needs to be away from me and dealing with all that comes with me.  I have been looking into bed and breakfasts and hotels on LBI, I will price out flights and maybe we can send her to see Pam and Lou. 


Friday, was much nicer than Thursday.  Jeff decided to take the day off.  After my neupogen shot we came right home.  I was in a lot of pain but it dwindles as the day goes on and I can tolerate it more.  I really wanted to go to the balloon launch.  Jeff suggested that we go to the childrens museum then see how the rest of the evening went. 

After the museum we decided to head to Highland and go to the walk.  There was a balloon setting up right in the park next door.  We decided to park and walk around.  Sadly we did not see the balloon actually launch.  Maddie was getting hungry and we decided to leave when we ran out of Cheerios.

Saturday was Matthew's highschool graduation party.  It was a very nice day.  Maddie did not have a great nap so we had to head home for an afternoon nap which lasted until 7.....



Sunday was a Lazy day here.  I just could not get motivated.

Christmas in July

My quest for today is to find out who in my family is hosting Christmas. I would like to go away after all of this and Jeff suggested for Christmas. I just do not want to let my Aunt Patty down if she is cooking.